KEY:
he = the love of my life Benjamin




So yesterday he called, and I told him exactly why I'd been so upset lately. Because I felt like he didn't love me anymore, and that I could feel our relationship ending.

he said he would fix it.

he said he'd be nicer.

he said that he still cared.

he said that he still loved me.

he said that he still cared about me.

he said that he wanted to stay together.

he said that he would do what ever it took, change whatever he had to change, just as long as he got to keep me.


he LIED.


I talked to him today, and everything was the same. He was still mean, still indifferent, still arguing with almost everthing I said, playing his games to make me feel guilty, making me feel un-attractive, un-wanted and un-loved.

Nothing changed.

And now I don't know what to do. I'm all for trying to make it work again, but he isn't.

But what's worse, is he doesn't seem interested in ending it either. I have no idea what I should do.

Leave and be alone?
Stay and be miserable?